cny pics

Chinese new yr pics :D

this is my outfit for 1st day of cny :))

with my beloved cousin yanchng-`

with my beloved cousin jingyi-`

the 3 of us. <3s.

another pic of us. hahas..

now trying to act pro. *ahem*

think we are done with our poses?? nah..still got some stupid pics..hahas.

messing ard with my hair! lols.

oh man..how come become black & white?!?

Although i'm sick, but i will still pose for pictures! hahas..buay tahan me rite..i noe. lols!

kinda blur look eh.

yes..smile :)

yay. smile again :) ahh..the ribbon

nvr tie properly. :/ e necklace also crooked le!

this is outfit for cny day 2 :))

alright! i'm done with the pics..finally. lols!

lunar new yr

Happy Lunar New Yr!! :D

hmm..sick on the first day of cny. how great.

muz be those vday chocs. hahas..

can't eat those goodies.. :(

gambled abit. won 10bucks. let's see how tmr.. GOOD LUCK TO ME :))

aeys can u pple see my blog? i can't see my own blog leh..i dunno y..anyone noes? haas.

a week's post

A week's posts

11 Feb Sunday- good mood can't always remain :(

went pasir ris for my face treatment alone. after that went to buy gifts for valentines. 1st time shop alone..e feeling not too bad :)

came home wrapped e girft..at 1st was a disaster. cos i dunno how to wrap nicely. took like almost half an hr to wrap e first one. i wrapped 13!

den this person smsed me & asked if i'm free on vdae. woah! i dun deny that i was happy. though i shldn't be feeling tt anymore. but i simply can't help it. haax. but den..after i asked e reason..i wasn't too happy eh..i dun wanna reject de..but i can't bring myself to accept wat he said.he said he din mean it. but i...dunno la..really.

e good mood & smiles i finally had for a few days, were gone. it came from & was taken away by the same person.

SIGHS.

12 Feb Monday- some hope for cca

there was this friendly match with CJ. well at 1st wasn't too happy cos coach nvr ask me go. ask some other defender whom i think wasn't that great. goodness..nvm lo..e match was on e following day.

den end of training, come tell me i got to go oso..hahax..so i tot wa..good good..can go..happily went to keep e netball poles.

accompanied peu to town aft that to get vday gifts lo.

13Feb Tuesday-totally screwed

went for e match. like wat the hell. coach put e J1s play most of e time. e j2s like not v happy cos like go there waste time. den coach say e main purpose of e match is to see e j1s. great. so we waited. at least e other j2s get to play e last quarter. i din even step into the court for the game.

like..wat the hell can. it was a total HUMILIATION. during e last quarter when some of e j2s were playing, e other j1s were beside me..sweating like dunno wat. i was like a fool. sitting down there all by myself. it was den i realise mapok's importance even more. thought how great it was if she came too.

cos i not too close with e other j2s ma..can't really click. Great la. because of this bloody thing, I DIN DO MY TUTORIALS, I DIN GET TO WATCH 9PM SHOW, I WAS HUNGRY, I HAVEN FINISH PREPARING MY VDAY GIFTS. i was fcking pissed. waste my time sitting there like some retarded asshole.

i'd rather i din get to go la. wats e point of going when i'm like not of much use. somemore e idiot captain wanted to ask me wash e bloody wet beeps. like wat the hell la she got brains or sth. pple already e only one that din get to play already..still wan me to clear up their shit. i jus ignored her & walked away. went home. steady. lols. if i washed for her, my name will be written upside down man. ying mei heng. how nice. but too bad, i'm still HENG MEI YING.

so i think my cca is hopeless already. made me feel so damn useless. i went home & cried my hearts out. but not fully cos of this, partly cos of my studies too..i'm really stressed. seems like everything's not well. cca lousy, studies lousy, relationship in a mess. thanks. life seemed to be meaningless. but if i kill myself, e pple who love me how..so i'm not going to do that. definitely.

after some encouragements thru sms from gd frens, i counselled myself. lols. u noe how? i wrote down ALL my probs on a rough pp. den i go thru each of them see how i can solve them. eventually like all can be solved., it jus takes time. so i cancelled all probs, tore up e pp & threw away. i've got no problems afterall :D

14 Feb Wednesday- Valentines!

went to sch with swollen eyes. haax

well, since this yr i'm single, i spreaded love to all my frens. hahax. gifts for them :)

received lots of gifts too..i'm loved afterall. without him, i'm still fine. at least on e surface, i'm still happy.

Thanks to ali for e nice little pouch with ur love letter + chocolate.

Thanks to peu for ur precious moments box of sweets & hand made ice cream stick.

Thanks to ah wan for ur love letter+pen+forever frens bkmark+sweets.

Thanks ah da for ur nicely wrapped goodies.

Thanks to mapok for e cute piglet pillow- so right for a sleepyhead like me.

Thanks Liting for ur piglet lolli+love letter+ keychain from thai.

Thanks kaishi for ur small little bouquet of flowers.

Thanks Geokting for ur ear studs.

Thanks Yihui for ur Merci Choc+cute little handmade card.

Thanks Shuying for the 3 'kisses' (choc)

Thanks Jermaine (ah huay!) for the toblerone & a 'kiss'.

Thanks Theresa for e nice little red flower.

Thanks Yanlin, Jonah, Yonghan, Jingyi,Yanchng,Shixian for the Vday wishes.

Thanks everyone who made my day! <3s.

ponned net & collected my new specs. it's red! the lucky colour for zodiac snake this yr. i jus realised it today. (17feb) hahax.

got our nice class tee too..

15 Feb Thursday- nth special

was in a hols mood. slack slack & slack was wat i did.

16 Feb Friday-a day like a dream`

had lesson in e morning. ponned celebration & went out with ali, peu, ah wan, ah da.

we went bugis. as usual. hahax..like everywk oso go there la..if not go town. like s'pore only got these 2 places. hahas..

after that peu got service, ah wan went for her date. so left me ali ah da. we went nat library slp like nobody's business. lols.

after that mingfeng called. she came to find us lo..cos of some reasons. so we continued to shop at bugis st. something weird happened. it suddenly rained! like was so hot in the aftn dunno y rain?!

peu came back from her service, no umbrella, so we went to fetch her. 2 person shared an umbrella lo..was super wet can..my adidas shoe! :/ wet. lols..

so because of that rain, we decided to go back to parco. went to edge cos ah da wants to buy clothes ma. so went this shop.

SAW HIM. it's like we'e in e same shop. i was outside e fitting rm waiting for ah da. den HE at e other end looking at clothes with HIS frens. ali saw HIM 1st lo, was too stunned to say anyth. said hi only. den flew in to tell me la.

i was like huh?!? den my heart nearly jumped out. i've always imagined to see HIM outside. but nvr did i expect it to be true. he left before i can say hi. HAI. was rather relieved but disappointed too.

later we went pasta mania. HE with HIS frens dinnering. we stand there but HE din see us. so near yet so far. after that finally decided to go in & eat. i pretended not to see HIM when we walked past his table. yes i did. pretended. hai..

HIS whole table looking at us. i guess they knew who i am. den we ordered our food. on e way back i said hi lo..HIs frens like all' aeys aeys aeys' when i apporaching their table la..biangs. i was blank for a moment. 1st reaction was to hit HIM on HIS arms & words naturally came out. like wat i will do normally: " aeys u here ar..hello!" smiley smiley like tt lo..& went back to our seat.

ah da said i did well. hees. i wanted to spite HIM la..so wanted ah da to walk beside me at 1st. but after that tot aiya no need la..jus like normal lor..cos ah da oso feel uncomfortable like tt ma..but he was was quite cooperative & 38 like girls after tt lo. lols..purposely walk tgt with me..help me take cutlery..offered me drinks..wanted to stage up a show. hahax..really thks leh.. :))

but din do it overboard la..ah da walk behind me on e way back only..cos if it were me to c him with another girl like tt ar..i think i'll bang wall man..so i can unstd how HE will feel..ok..unless HE can't be bother with me already la..hmm..den HE left 1st..said byebye..i waved, said byebye. smiley smiley again. he din really smile leh.. :/

something else happened at pasta oso la..but i shall not elab since it's not regarding me lo..not appropriate to say lo.

after that went back bugis st, & i saw HIM again.

met alot alot of pple la..hahas..really a weird day. i was like in a dream..dunno how i shld feel.

hmm..met at least 2 times a day unexpectedly, isit fate..? do i still feel for HIM..? or am i jus too used to having HIM..?

got pple praised our class tee. happy cos it's peu me & ah wan design de :))

Today- Lunar new yr eve

it's a slacking day! i slept alot alot. 15 hrs. considered much compared to 4hrs per day as usual. :D

this yr like not much new yr atmosphere leh..weird weird..haax..maybe i've grown up? lols. tmr can wear nice nice le..yayness ^^

happier?

pls let my mood remain (:

so fast 1 week already! hahas..it's weekends again! :D


was still feeling stressed. until wed nite..not so stressed..mainly cos of few reasons ba.


firstly, out of no reason, somebody came & talk to me on msn. u shld noe who i'm talking abt. hmm..rather weird. ask me to forget him, still come talk to me. but i pretended as if nth happen la..talk to him normally lo.


well, i seriously, really, absolutely DUNNO why my heart skipped a beat, pumped even faster when i see his msg window popping up. i tot i LET GO already?!? i can't control it leh. i really got no idea how come i will still feel something..i tot i already gave up my heart on him le leh..


den nvm..we jus chat chat lo..in fact i was rather happy la..that we can still talk like normal frens..with occasional bo liao bickering like we did before. after that, feel not so stressed up le..though went to bed later but no complaints from complain queen meiying. hahas!


oh well, i was happy for e rest of the day til today. & is still feeling it. :) hahas..he makes me smile. for no reason. i noe i'm stupid. why are girls so easily coaxed?? HAI. but i wun harbour any more hopes anymore. i dun wanna think too much & i'm not thinking abt it. yups, good hor. hees.i dun mean to feel so happy. it's jus there. i guess i still need time to get over him. goodness.


ok den got consultations. i'm feeling happy cos i can finally unstd ionic equilibrium & do maths integration application liao. today got maths test. i got 7 marks no time to do finish. & i noe how to do de leh! screwed again. HAI. but nvm..at least i'm aware that i noe how to do! :D


today went town & bugis street with ali, liting & ah da. liting bought her new yr top, same as wat i had. lols..it's ok cos we wun see each other la..live so far..so tired. &amp; my bag getting bloody heavier & heavier as we shop. i complained all the way, but i still beared with it. see, i'm a strong girl. lols!


lalala..tmr got NE journey with 0609 to the Discovery Centre! & make new specs! hehes. sunday got appointment with nyss. :D


though i'm not stress-free, i'm stress-lesser already. HAPPY. :))


jiayous! gambatte! ajaahwating! i can do it. ^-^


oh ya..a big THANK U to LiTing for e sweet advanced valentine's day gift! loves. :)


congrats to most of my juniors.. they did well for their O's! smile smile smilesss..hees!


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to yanchng-`
heys! thks girl.. i'll try de! loves-`

this is called life

this is called life.

guess wat i did these 2 days?? i SHOPPED. finally..ahahas.

i'm like so stressed til i dun laugh so much. & dun even feel like smiling sometimes. & i keep throwing tantrum. i'm sorry if i affected pple around me kkx..i dun mean to vent my frustrations from studies on u. :) i apologise..sincerely. heh..

hmm..u noe wat it feels like to chiong everyday.. same routine. brain thinking of the same things everyday. like totally lost myself. jus living the days numbly. study chiong. slp chiong.take bus chiong. take mrt oso chiong. lunchtime chiong. even slack oso have to chiong. hahas..been rather lifeless.

anyway, i said SHOPPING WAS THE REMEDY :D

Friday.

i went town after sch. with ali,ivy eilemon, aloy & ah da. but later on left me ali ah da only. we shop shop le den go eat wanton mee at heerens grafitti cafe for dinner. yum yum.

after that we were like so cute. go mini toons buy sweets. every kind we chose took 3. one for each of us. den we share cost. lols. ah da say minimise costs, maximise satisfaction-triple happiness. lols! so we were like young kids eating the gummies as we walked in town.

den we went topshop. i tried the super high heels while waiting for ali to pay for her stuff. lols. with my orange ankle socks on. it was retarded but nvm, jus wanted to see if i can walk. hahas..i can walk on heels leh! surprising i din fall, i still did ankle rotation b4 i try e heels la..in case i twist my ankle. lols..

after that home sweet home. result was tired legs. :)

Saturday.

J2s got CIP! collect newspp, old clothes & electronics. i think 0609 was rather organised. claps for everyone. ^^

& we were so smart. walked down the corridor & repeated ourselves like karang guni. "NYJC here to collect newspapers, old clothes & electronics! " in English & mandarin. lols. those who have will open their door. hahas. den martin & yichun 'camped' in the lift. stop at every level to collect our things. funny but effective. lols..

got great sense of achievement. a pat each on our backs :))

after that went orchard library study. i got 'de-motivated' again & felt sleepy. the words were like flying around on the notes. my goodness.

guess my motivation this yr comes & go very fast la. dunno y..

went shopped abit after library closed lor..haax.

walking along orchard rd is a blessing. & that's called life. hehes..

i guess i cannot give up on my studies ba. so i wun. jiayous! -.-

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to alien-`

hmm..i'm not affected by them la. i'm affected & demoralised by my tuts & results. haax. anyway..buy more girlish new yr clothes this yr ar! hahax..that day ask u come far east dun wan come. see got time not, if have den go out lo..but kinda busy la..hai.

to jonah-`

ya i'm stressed :( u made the correct choice to withdraw.. :) how's studies? oh ya i'm sorry eh..i haven got time to print ur notes la seriously. i nvr go near photocopier everyday lo..ps..u wan take back ur card for memoir or however u spell that word? hahas..

to ali-`

hahas..ya lor..shopping is good for health. lols..& sorry that i threw tantrum that day. hees.