emo post

oops. emo again.

ytd itchy hands go sign in frenster. saw sth that i think i shldn't have seen. dunno who is the other party beside him-`. din even take a photo w him & din even leave a trace of myself in his frenster. tts the pek cek part. so i guess it shld be someone special? but watever, i'm going to pretend that i nvr see anything.

somehow i din feel sad. but i suddenly feel my heart skipping a beat. & feel nauseous again. isit upset? nah i'm not too sure wat this weird feeling is. a mixture.

perhaps i jus can't let go la. so i shldn't be thinking so much. whoever that is..it doesn't concern me anymore rite..none of ur business already la heng mei ying!

basket..dun unstd y i'm still mulling over this the whole aftn. couldn't really conc on work. kinda slow.

if he-` really uploaded the pics to make me forget him..perhaps i shld. but maybe it's jus for his own shuangness to put there den i nth to say la. but still, the outcome is the same. i shld forget. not jus the past. i guess that's not enuf now. i shld forget him-`.

as promised..i've decided to do this only after 18 Dec.let the foolish heart reminisce for last few days. why this date..cos it's the 1st time i called a guy. on 12midnite on his bdae. it shall end on the same day i guess.

sorry but i'm perfectly a perfectionist, so like to start & end everything nice nice. but things dun always go my way. so i'm an imperfect perfectionist. haax.

some guys can really let go easily. some can't. i guess he belongs to the former. hmm..

it's only 5 days away..i'm still wondering if i shld sms him on his bdae..

my rational mind tells me that i shldn't. cos i told him i will forget. but my illogical heart says i shld, at least as a fren, sms him..hai..tell me wat i shld do? any advice jus post on tagboard lo.. haax.thks eh..

i din noe relationships can be so complex. i keep thinking if i can go back to the past & show him wat we've become now..den maybe it wouldn't have started. hahas like doraemon story? lols.

everything happens for a reason. maybe god (of all religion) noes that we're not meant to be & has arranged an even better future for me. to be on the bright side :)

hmm but the more one gets hurt, the stronger one grows.

i wanna grow.

On work

the accounts dept really count wrongly. balance will be banked in tgt with this mth de salary :D

lots of part timers coming in. we expected lots of girls cos it's admin work. surprising. most of them are guys. lols.