i dunno why i can be so relaxed for Alevels.
to me, i feel like i'm taking some other normal exams.
though started practising quite early but somehow i dun really feel the hardwork.
or rather..maybe i haven even put in my best effort? i dunno.
i jus totally dun feel like studying anymore. lost the passion..lost the motivation..lost the everything..
so much resources and i'm letting them go to waste. (cos i nvr finish studying/doing)
the thirst for AAB no longer there.
so many years of schooling made me tired of all that competition.
plus 2yrs of not-so-good jc results is a strong barrier to that self-belief of 'i can do it.'
perhaps it's why i dun feel the stress..cos i'm like lowering my standard further and further.
the former hardworking and perfectionist meiying..gone gone.


GP paper today. and i only started touching the notes at 11pm. studied til 3am. go slp. wake up at 6am. go for it.
Paper 1 did this qns that seemed quite unpopular cos so far i only noe 2 person who did the same qns as me.
"can a belief in the supernatural be sustained in our modern world?"
Paper 2 passage was not too hard. topic on the gender revolution.
lucky i read the critical readings. thats why i skipped the summary and jumped to AQ first.
in the end summary did halfway.
sighs...i always can't finish doing my paper 2. boo..
hope can at least pass.


Press on.
20 days to freedom.