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This is to HIM-`



though u may not see this, but i still wan to say wat i wan to say.


i no longer noe how to communicate with u. always talk to u on msn, give me that kind of short reply. ask u busy not u say not really. den y still reply so slow. nvm. den 1 or 2 words de reply. dun wan talk to me jus say busy la. I hate that kind of reply. everytime i wanted to tell u more, but see this kind of reply i keep quiet liao. ah da says some guys will play hard to get. giving short replies is oso one of them. this one i not sure. pek cek. & i no longer have the reason to even sms u. even if i do, i wouldn't expect a reply. cos there's always none.



i think i very foolish leh. so many pple ask me give up on u. i dunno y i still held on. whenever i wan to give up, u always will jus nice choose that timing to talk to me or do sth. always choose my exam period..like tt i xin luan again. wan give up oso v hard. u said u will wait for me to regain the trust. logically, i can only do tt if i get to communicate or go out with u or anyth else la. but i can't do anyth. & u did nothing.



i waited & waited. though i noe u may not always keep ur words or do wat u said, i tried hard to believe u. i chose to believe. i really tried. it dun have to be sth big. jus a simple sms & i may be over the moon. wat do i get eventually. disappointment. it's always like that. maybe u're not sensitive enough. but sometimes it's obvious that i'm upsetted or unhappy with ur replies. but u can't be bothered. it adds on to even greater disappointment.



to u, i may be nothing. to me, u were once everything. tts the difference btw guys & girls. if u can't do wat u said, dun say. maybe i dunno wat u're thinking. or maybe u chose to give up alr. u left everything unsaid. i told u i wouldn't give up easily. but now..given this situation, i'm not too sure. maybe it was jus wishful thinking on my part. perhaps it's really time for me to move on..i was the only one who stupidly held on til now. thinking that by forgiving, things would be the same again. maybe i was wrong. there's still something lacking.



yes i unstd that we're still young & we should enjoy ourselves. life is short, live it to the fullest rite..i noe. maybe we shouldn't have started. but we should at least wrap it up & end nicely rite. aiya it dun seems to bother u anyw..only me again. because i feel the sense of security from u, i fell into this trap tt i'm trying hard to get out now. but now, it seems to be gone. insecure.



but i still have to thank u for giving me those wonderful memories. i nvr regretted abt this relationship. the only thing i regretted was not to have taken a photo with u. hmm..so before i let go, i would like to keep the memories & everything in this blog. take great care den...