depression?

depressed??

i suddenly realise how noble my mom is. i love my mom.


my bro kena gastric flu today again. my mom took really good care of him la. if next time i got child dunno how la..


hmm.. talked to my mom over dinner time. abt myself. & i cried. for no reason.


i seriously think i got some prob or wat. recently keep getting nervous for no reason. hands gets cold lo..feels like going for some impt oral examination or presentation. den will feel nauseous. :(


& i oso think i got eating disorder or wat la. sometimes i think back, i dunno if i shld regret going for SNCO camp (it's a st john training camp). because after that camp, my life like changed.


there's this guy in my team, always eat alot. meal time the food like mount everest. den he can finish within 5 mins. 5 mins leh! you mei you gao cuo! den he always somehow sit in front of me or beside me. i can't change seat cos cannot choose seats ma.so..i c him eat i feel like puking. from then on..whenever it concerns eating, i got prob liao.


abit ridiculous leh.but i think is a psychological barrier. cos i oso not wan to slim down or wat. nothing how come will have anorexic?!? haax. crazy..


but this is troubling me. close frens will noe. cos everytime meal time i wun feel hungry one. den feel nauseous again. actually come nanyang ok for few mths le leh..but dunno y come back again.


i feel abnormal. omg.


i think only ali noe most abt this lo. maybe wanyan & peu noe abit lo. but i din tell someone..i dunno how to. so sorry.. thats y i always avoid meeting for meals with that someone last time. den alot things nvr do before lo cos always go home before meal time. it's a regret. aiya but tts not the point now.


these few days like will feel v full after meals lo..den can't slp at nite.


alamak..


my mom jus now console me say nth one la ask me dun think so much. ask me wan go c psychiatrist( watever how u spell tt) not. she worried i got depression. she says it's due to stress. but i'm not sure leh..maybe yes. maybe not.


den cannot get upset oso. will feel nauseous.. abnormal rite..i noe. i think so too.


my mom says my father last time oso like tt de. can't eat much. will feel the same way as i feel lo. isit due to genes or inheritance.. i dunno la..


hmm..i think this is the only secret i have lo. haax..


my mom will bring me go c doc if still continue this way le. i wan to get well la! idiot weird mental prob.


hahas..i think later nobody wan fren me after reading this post le la. meiying so abnormal one. haiyo..but watever la. i keep this to myself very long already. going crazy le..haax. i feel much better talking to my dearest mom toos. a big thank you to those who accepted the temporary abnormal way i am now. loves^^




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to ah da-`
hahas..u wan my job? i can help u ask lo. i think they need pple to rush work. but muz be at least 16yrs old. haax..hmm..wat happen? anything sms me lo..can't possibly say here ma..haax. dun worry la..will be ok de :)


to jonah-`
heys! hahax. yeps actually not bad la. but i will still complain :P oohs signed RSAF means wat? work for airforce ar? or study? wa..3 yrs ar..future pilot-to-be e..lols.